Luck/Fate/Choices

Luck/Fate/Choices

Still no luck on the Man Hunt front. I admit I’m not going at it real hard, but I did send out a few smiles and one email. (I had to buy credits to do that!)and got no response from any of them. Althoug I have been contacted by some very young guys, and a very Old one too. LOL
I see a bit of a pattern here. :confused: In my everyday life I do get a bit of interest from the opposite sex, but it’s never from the guys that I’m interested in or attracted to. I hope the internet thing works out better.

Then, for some reason this afternoon a few guys from my past spent some time on my mind. Men that I was attracted to, and now that I look back on it, I think were attracted to me too. I was just too stupid or slow to pick up the hints. :crazy:

I remember one guy that was a “friend”. Silly me, I really thought he was really just a friend. We trained together in Martial Arts and we went to a couple of tournaments together, and even spent one night in the same bed, no sex, no kissing even, just a bit of cuddling. I can still remember the obvious tension as we both fought to keep things platonic. It was hard becasue we were both quite prominant in our dojo, and he was a bit younger than me. It was somethign that could’ve casued quite a stir. That night we talked about how we were attracted to each other but that neither of us wanted to “ruin our friendship”.

He left town shortly after that, and everytime he came back he looked me up. Never once did I make a bit of an effort to tip us across that line. I regret that now, because I really liekd him, and he was a good guy, and when I look back on it now, the way he kept looking me up and writing to me meant that he felt the same. Ofcourse, I started to travel more, and moved a few times, and I stopped gettign his letters. My own fault. I’ve always been horrible at keeping in touch.

I wonder if I can track him down through the internet? I bet if I did, I’d find him married with a kid or two. I don’t regret the adventures I’ve been on, but sometimes it feels like everyone else has grown up,(ie:settled down and started families) and I’m a female Peter Pan still searching for NeverNeverLand.

5 Comments

  1. Oh Girl, I hear you. I went out for dinner a few nights ago with some girlfriends and sitting there with them and each has two kids and a husband and you wonder what you’re doing with your life.

    I’ve thought a lot about past relationships lately and I don’t regret any of them. I don’t regret not moving forward with the guys that were interested in me and I don’t regret not settling down.

    I do regret not following through with this one guy’s advances in a bar in Seattle bar. Man he was hot. He looked exactly like Shemar Moore. There’s my one and only regret. :crazy:

  2. 😎 In the year 2000 I got the urge to find a few old friends, I used canada411 and found some, if the name isn’t to popular its easy. After I found them I met one of the girls and a guy that I knew really liked me, his girlfriend at the time wouldn’t let him see me anymore :P. Strange thing is he has the same color hazel eyes as hubby. Another guy I phoned and we had a good chat, and another I talk to his wife, she works in the grocery store in my hometown. I just wanted to know if they were happy.

  3. I say seach him out and give him a holla. Sometimes finding old friends is neat even if they are married, with kits, balding, etc. The guy I lost my virginity to in high school e-mailed me! And that was YEARS ago, believe me. He turned out to be an accountant, nothing I would have guessed in a million years. It was so cool to hear from him though. :rolleyes:

  4. Sasha

    Grace~ I don’t regret any of my choices, but sometimes I wonder what life would’ve been like if I’d made different ones. You Know?

    Dianna~ I may give that a try! πŸ™‚

    Monica~ Agree, even if he is married with kids…I think I’d like to say Hi…see how he is. He was great guy. I was stupid. LOL

  5. Oh, I hear you. I sometimes wondered about how it’d have turned out if a different path was taken.

    I agree with Monica, look him up. If you decided to embark on this search, please do keep us informed on the progress. πŸ˜€

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