Friday, December 31st, 2004
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This one is thanks to Lynn!
:: how jedi are you? ::
Archive for December, 2004
Thursday, December 30th, 2004
It’s been a while since I blogged about writing. Partly because most of the blogs I read have been all about writing and publication lately, and I try to be different. But I think mostly it’s because I’m not sure exactly what path I’m going down with my writing right now.
At this point in time last year I’d just finished my first attempt at a ROMANCE NOVEL. It was a big step for me because a) it was a romance and not erotica b) it was a novel, and not just a short story. Harlequin Temptation rejected the ms last February. Their concern was my “writing style”. I took that to mean my voice, and style were not suited to Har at all. (the full for that ms is now at both EC and Liquid Silver ) But, I wanted to write MORE than erotic short stories, so I started a novella, aimed at Brava, in February. I’m still not finished it!! Not only am I not finished it, but I’ve started several other ‘projects’ that are now unfinished. (I’m also contemplating turning the novella into a longer novel! Yes! I think I might be :crazy: ) I did manage to complete and sell a couple more erotic short stories, so it’s not like I’m not doing ANYTHING. But that wasn’t part of my goal.
My website is one accomplishement that I’m very happy with this past year. Although I didn’t BUILD it myself, I am proud of the fact that I hired a great designer! I also learned a lot about writing in 2004. I didn’t take any courses, or go to any workshops, yet I can see a difference in my writing. An improvement.
Now, improvement of actual writing aside, I still feel a bit lost. I still want to have a book of my own out there, something with my own name on the cover and not just one of many authors in an anthology. But I haven’t even been able to finish a 120 page novella, how the hell am I ever going to write NOVELS!? Why is it I’m stalling in all of my current projects? I’m pretty sure it’s not a ‘fear of success’ thing. It’s not a fear of failure wither. LOL I’m ok with both. Part of it is time management, and other obligations, but everyone has those so I have to look deeper.
When I look deeper I find a dark swirling hole. Reasons circling the drain are.
1) Don’t know where to target. ePublishers, Brava, Black Lace, Berkeley?
2) Don’t know what to write. erotica, or romance?
3) Stick with short stories, maybe even sell some more? Or take some time and actually write a full novel that may, or may not, be a complete loss?
4) Get rid of another shift at work so I can have more time to write? (I think I do better under pressure, and what better pressure/motivation to focus on writing than needing to sell to pay the bills?
This would be an investment in myself. A step that means…I am going to do this and BE SUCCESSFUL.
I’m hoping to figure things out for myself soon…Part of me says just write. If the novella isn’t working then write something, anything that grabs you. Then the doubts hit again. I’m not like some of my writer friends. I don’t hear voices in my head, or get visits from my characters. I can’t write 10 pages a day. 5 pages a day is a banner page count for me. Is this because I don’t have the time to immerse myself? Or because I’m not really a “true” writer?
Ok. This blog turned out a bit longer than I planned. But, it explains why I haven’t blogged about writing lately. 
Wednesday, December 29th, 2004
I do.
I see magic in a strangers smile when I’m having a bad night. I see it in the gleam in a friends eye when she reads my mind. I feel it in the air when something ‘big’ is about to happen. I feel it in my blood when my lover kisses me, and in my body when skin touches skin.
I also feel it in my heart when I look at words printed on paper that tell a story, and know that it came from within someone, somewhere.
I believe magic is all around us, if we’re willing to see it.
What do you believe?
Tuesday, December 28th, 2004
In my office I have a photograph of a lone runner on an uphill stretch of highway. It’s titled SUCCESS, and the caption strikes a cord in me everytime I read it, so I thought I’d share.
It says; Success doesn’t come to you . . . you go to it.
Simple, and to the point.
Monday, December 27th, 2004
Sunday, December 26th, 2004
I admit it. I am the youngest in my family and I got spoiled for Christmas. :D Not only did I get a new 27″ t.v. and a great new chair from IKEA, but my Dad and Brother loaded them up across town to my place, and set them both up. They also moved my three bookcases (heavy and full) so I could move my futon and make everything fit nicely! It’s almost like I have a new apartment!! LOL
Today I need to make a quick run to the grocery store because I have no food in my house, and then I’m going to settle into the new GREAT chair from Ikea with my laptop and get some writing done. I’m not sure what I’m going to write yet, but it’s going to be something FUN!
I know!! I’m going to write a short short story as a Christmas gift to my update subscribers. So if your interested in reading it, be sure to sign up. I promise it’ll be short, sweet (well maybe not sweet) and sexy. :hehe:
Friday, December 24th, 2004
I was sick all week and missed out on the fun with all the quizes. So here’s my Christmas Carol. I like this, cuz this is actually one of my Fave songs! :D
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You Are “Joy to the World” |
 Joy to the world, the Lord is come! Let earth receive her King; Let every heart prepare Him room, And heaven and nature sing, It’s not about what you get under the tree |
Friday, December 24th, 2004
I h ave to do a run to the mall, and the grocery store. Ugh!
But other than that, I am happy happy happy. It’s not so much Christmas spirit that’s making me happy, but the fact that I feel almost human again! :hehe: I might even get some writing done tonite!!
:hehe: HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!! :laugh:
Thursday, December 23rd, 2004
Wow! I managed to surprise myself by getting pretty sick this week. My Dr. is impressed. Not only did I have the flu (hence the fever and aches and pains) but I also developed laryngitis. Yup, when I do something, I do it big!
One of the worst things about being so sick was that while I got time off from work, I didn’t accomplish anything with that time. I didn’t finish my Christmas shopping (the plan for Monday) and I didn’t do any writing either. I did manage to sit at the computer once or twice, but my energy only lasted about 20 minutes before the world started to spin and I had to head back to the couch. My cat, Mystery, has been very supportive during it all. ;) Cuddling with me and not being a total pain in the ass. I think she knew I wasn’t feeling well.
Tonight I’m going to back to work, and tomorrow afternoon, I’ll be one of those silly people that are running around the mall doing last minute gift buying. :crazy: I’ve never left things so late before. I hope I can find some good stuff. I also hope I don’t give myself a relapse!
Thanks for dropping by and wishing me well. :) I’m sure you’re energy helped me to kick this so soon. (The Dr. Said I would be sick until Christmas!) And Steph, Thanks for NOT sending Jake by. Seeing me like this could’ve scarred him emotionally. :hehe:
Monday, December 20th, 2004
I’m hot. Not as in good looking or special, but as in “I have a fever.” So I’llbe back tomorrow if I feel better. Have a good day all! :)
