The things you learn…..

The things you learn…..

I was at the Dr yesterday. Weighed in at 302. Three pounds more than the scale in the morning when I wake up.
Four years ago when I was focussing on my fitness I went down to 282. I kept it off for a year, but didn’t lose more when I switched to a full-time position at the day job. Then it slowly started creeping back on all the way up to 318. This time in losing I’ve not been focussing working out. Instead I’ve just been focussing moving. As in not going to the gym, but walking around the block when I can, dancing around my apartment, or even walking more at work by taking a position that required me to basically run laps in the store for 6-8 hours a day (average of 14k steps a day). And on not turning to junk food in my frustration and stress. It’s slower, but it’s working. Not as well as it should when the Dr looks at what I’m eating, but slowly.
 

The truly interesting part? I found out yesterday I have PCOS. I can remember back in 2015 when at TNE Vegas  T.J.  Michaels  told me to ask my doctor about it because it sure sounded like I had it.  I did ask my Dr, and he waved me off, and I didn’t push. Oops.

So, turns out people with PolyCystic Ovary Syndrom have a difficult time losing weight due to the amount of hormones in their body. Which means there is a reason I’ve had such a hard time.  Let me clear…. I know I CAN lose weight. I’ve done it before, and I know what I need to do. The thing is, I’m 51 years old now. And I was 45 when I was in Vegas. When I was younger I was an athlete, and in a job that was very physical and I trained constantly. It was my job to stay fit and I did it. I enjoyed it. I left that career and lifestyle when I was 30. and started writing a couple years later. By the time I was 35 and writing full-time I’d gained 50 pounds, but to me, that was just life. I was still active, and fit, I just wasn’t, fighting fit, if you get what I mean. It wasn’t my job anymore, I was just trying to be a normal healthy person.

When I was 36 I became a full time author, and my gym time went from three or four days a week to pretty much non-existent. I gained 120 pounds over a two year period while I launched my writing career, and I’ve been struggling with that weight ever since.

Dr’s and experts say you should be able to lose weight simply by changing your diet, but that’s never worked for me. I’ve tried it, many times, and that only led to frustration. I’d join a gym and go four or five times a week, working my ass off, literally. Those workouts, along with changing eating habits would get me some weight loss. But I hated it. I enjoy being active, but I’m not a fan of simply weight training or treadmill running. I’m older now, and I don’t want to have to work out like I did when I was in my 20’s just to be somewhat healthy. Other people didn’t have to, so why did I have to live like a competitive athlete in order to have normal weight loss? It never failed though, as soon as I slacked off on the working out so much, I’d gain it all back. That would lead me to be frustrated and then I’d give up completely.

It didn’t help that I felt my other Dr, my family and even friends, would think I was lying about my eating. Either to them or to myself. Because if I was doing what I said I was doing I should be losing weight.

Well, turns out there’s a REASON!!! I was right, I shouldn’t have to work out like an athlete in order to lose weight. However, due to other complications that won’t be fixed for a while. It’s okay. Now that I know there’s a reason I have to be stricter and more disciplined than your average person, I can stick with it. So, starting today, I’m back to being strict. My biggest things, because gyms are still closed. No more soda(even diet) and no more bread, pasta, or potatoes. ????

Anyone else working on a healthier You? Shout out in the comments. Let’s do this together!!

 

2 Comments

  1. Erin Suitor

    I need to do a healthier me too. And the no soda thing is a killer. It’s my Achilles heel. That and weekends. When I don’t have a schedule like I do at work, I can go until dinner time without having eaten anything. Which I know is the opposite of a healthy diet.

  2. I find I need to do it cold turkey. I can;t “ease off” on soda. On many things actually. I have to sort of be all or nothing or I too easily slip back into having more than I should.
    I get the weekends thing. Do you have any hobbies you can use to keep yourself busy? I’d suggest finding a good book to lose yourself in and lose track of time but I find with writingbecause I’ve always had a pop when I write I’m finding sitting and writing without one even harder. So, maybe something that keep S your hands busy like knitting, or bathing the dog? LOL
    Good Luck and keep me up to date on howyou’re doing. If you need an ear or anything I’m here.

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