So, I’ve been told by another writer that I’ve been MIA for too long. I’m also getting reader letters asking why there’s nothing on my Coming Soon page, so I figure I should do a post on what’s up..or not.
I haven’t been writing. Not because I don’t have time, but because the desire is gone. I started out this year determined to do some work and get a new agent, somone who could help me decide on a path for my career because to be blunt, I’m not happy pumping out the same ol’, same ol’ stories time and time again. And thats what it was starting to feel like. I felt like I’d written the erotic stories I’d wanted to. When I was trying to think of story ideas to propose for new contracts I couldn’t fight the feeling that I was starting to regurgitate my characters, and their conflicts. Not only is that not good for me creativitly, but I’ve no doubt it would soon piss of my readers. I know I’ve had favorite authors that I stopped reading because it happened tht when I picked up a new release of thiers, I couldn’t help but think…“Haven’t I read this already?”
I didn’t want that to happen to me, or my readers, so I figured it was time to maybe alter my direction a bit. Now, let me tell you, finding an agent when you don’t have a book to sell or contract in hand is tough. I’ve learned a lot in this process. Some good, some not so good. One of the toughest things was, when I did find an agent who was willing to work with me to build a project, that I discovered it wouldn’t work. As much as I wanted to do things in an orderly and logical manner (IE: plot idea, write synopsis, write chapters, write novel) it didn’t work for me.
I wanted it to. Lord, how I wanted it to. But it didn’t. I’m not sure if it was the plotting or brainstorming, which I enjoyed at the time it was happening, that killed my creativity, or if I was simply trying to change too much of my own process at one time. Either way, it didn’t work for me, and that agent ( Who was wonderful BTW) wasn’t a good fit for me.
Now, I feel like I am starting all over from scratch. My own journey to publications was never what I would call average or on track. Things happened fast, probably too fast, and now it’s time to pay those dues that everyone has to pay at some point or another. The good thing about that? I’m determined to do it slow and easy, not fast and furious. I’m going for the marathon Gold, not the sprint.
So please, bear with me while I work towards putting more Sasha White books on the bookshelves. Your support and cheering means a lot to me.
I am very sorry to read that you are having some troubles. BUT I do have to say thank you. I totally agree with you… I have lost some authors as well due to what you just wrote. I love your writing, and I can’t wait to read more, however you obviously need to do what is right for you, and well, no pressure, but I can’t wait for more! :D
“My own journey to publications was never what I would call average or on track.”
Blaze a trail, hon. Make it your own. Sure there’s business side to this, money to be made, etc. But what it’s really about is satisfaction, growth, creativity, play, happiness, experimentation & discovery. I’ll know you’ll have it all in time. :D
I’m right there with you, Sasha–you stumble a little with writing and have to start over if you lose your focus. But you’re good, if it’s what you want to do, you’ll get there. Slow and steady wins the race, right? (something about a fable?)
*hug* Let me know whenever you want to hook up.
It sounds like you are in a funk to me lady. That’s something that smacks us all once in a while.
If you ever want to chat, rant or just have a wild conversation I would be more than happy to hear from you.
Sometimes the shoulder of a stranger can be just what you need.
Noelle