Sasha White

Okay I’m sharing my panic. I’ve been very good abtou only sharing it with a couple of frineds lately, but now..it’s got to be let loose!

It’s the 17th! November 17th!! My deadline for BOUND is December 1st. The story needs tobe minumum 360 pages. I have completed 220 of those pages. The pages are good. I fianlly do feel that. And editing the whole thing will only take me a day at most (I actually hired a freelance editor to go over it all for me, then I just have to do the correction ie: comma’s. I suck with comma’s) 150 pages are already edited. BUT I still need to write 140 pages!!!! :crazy:

OK. I am paniced. But I knowI can do this. Hiring Roberto to edit for me was a smart thing to do. And I’m glad I writer fussy. By that I mean, I write and whenthe storyis done it’s done. I rarely add or remove scenes. So . . . I see an all nighter or two in store for me this week, and a few quizes and photo’s for you all, since I might be too brain dead to blog. :)

But I will be back!

In the meantime, don’t forget I have a free online story at BEHIND THE MUSE. It started yesterday, the links to join are in yesterday blog post!

My real name is Polyhymnia, but you can call me Poly.

Poly

Last night as I lay in bed drifting off to sleep an image appeared in my mind. A soft erotic image of a kiss. You know that moment when your about to be kissed. Your eyes are sliding shut, your lips are parting, you can feel your breath mingling with anothers. The slightest brush of their lips against yours. The demanding want that builds inside you in that instant before the kiss deepens.

That’s Erotic.

The light skim of a lovers fingers across your arm when you’re in a crowded room. The secret smile you share, the heat that flows through your body in anticapation of being alone again.

That’s erotic.

Sometimes it’s just the possibility of whats might happen that’s erotic.

“You see a lot of smart guys with dumb women, but you hardly ever see a smart woman with a dumb guy.”
Erica Jong, author

THIS essay on Seeking Stardom by Dahlia Schweitzer is well worth a read.

Thanks to Vikki I saw this $1500 vibrator. It’s good for 7 hours of continuous use after charging for half an hour. 7 Hours! :crazy:

And finally, for a good laugh, go check out the picture of this Birthday Cake. Really! Go Check it out!

Take a look at this little guy!

Then this big guy!

See a pattern?

Yesterday I admitted that I know it’s my own fault that I’m not where I want to be. That I have a hard time finding balance in my life. The strange thing is, I don’t really even have that much going on. I mean I have writing, and I want to get back in shape, and I want to keep working (Part time). It shouldn’t be hard. I’m single, I have no kids, no one to answer to but myself.
Yet, I’m floundering.

I think about how much I used to do, every day, and I wonder how I got so lazy. What happened? It’s not age, I know I don’t look or feel my age . . . so what happened? Where did my DRIVE go? My first priority right now is writing, but why is so hard to keep up with the others? I think I have a bit f an obsessive personality. When I was in martial arts, it was everything to me. Sure I worked, and partied *blush* but even hung over or with little sleep, I trained every day, sometimes twice a day.

When I wanted to travel, I trevelled. Nothign stopped me. Now I’m that way with writing. It’s all I do.
This habit has been something I’ve been trying to break for a while. The search for balance has been happening all year. I’ve had false starts, good results, then I slack off again. I just can’t seem to find my own staying power.

A while ago my buddy JJ Massa started to post pictures of a pretty hot guy on her blog. Teasing us all that she had a “special project” going on.

When the Essense Trilogy was revealed I admit, I drooled over the covers like everyone else. Andrei is hot. I especially like this cover. The attitude, the unbuttoned jeans, the implication of what Everything entails. Yummy…anyway..I’m getting off track here.

Cover model Andrei Claude has joined JJ at several chats and he’s pretty cool. Me being me…a woman that loves pictures of men . . . followed a link to his website one day. And got a kick in the pants.

This guy is more than a pretty face and hot body.

His website reminded me it’s all about dedication and desire. It’s not about balance. I’ve always been a firm believer in the “anything is possible if you put your mind to it” way of living. But going to his website reminded me that I hadn’t really put my mind to much lately.

Much other than writing,that is. But the writing is going well, it’s the other directions that I need to think about. I need to decide just how badly I want those other goals. I’ll never go back to training the way I did when I was competing, but I do want to feel like an athlete again. Even if it’s only a weekend Athlete, not a full time one.

So, if I whine again, remind me. It’s all about desire…what do I want . . . and how bad do I want it?

I want it enough to go the gym more than three days a week (which is what I’ve been doing). I want it bad enough that when I went grocery shopping today I walked to the store instead of drove, and didn’t get any junk. I grabbed cereal so I’ll start eating breakfast again (it’s just so damn hard to make myself function when I wake up…eating is an effort…LOL) , and I didn’t get any POP! No Diet Coke, or Dr.Pepper or anything. I admit..that was hard. Soda Pop is a real addiction for me. When I get real grumpy in the next week, it’s caffiene withdrawal.

So, if you need a little inspiration…and really, who doesn’t? Check out Andrei’s website and be sure to surf his galleries. There are some truely great pics there. My fave is Gallery 3.

My Horoscope:
“Today’s stern message: your frustrations and lack of progress can be blamed on one person and one person alone: you. Once you can accept that this is why you are here, you will be further along on the way to resolving these setbacks. “

Okay, I get it. And yes, I believe it. It’s time to stop dilly-dallying and glue my ass to the chair. I have a story due, and it won’t write itself, as much as I’d like.

And sadly, as much as I’d hoped to find a balance with this writing and fitness thing, it ain’t working. So for now, the writing is first priority. I also think that I’m going to give up on this “normal” day time life.

You see, lately, for about two weeks now. I’ve been actually waking up around around 8 or 9 am. and going to bed before 2. This is very unusal for me…and it took a a while to get into the habit. However. I’m not as productive during the day as I can be when I stay up all night and sleep all day. So, I think I’ll go back to my old ways. Some people are just natural night owls and I think I’m one of them.

WHat about you? When does your brain, or you, function better?

Looky what I got! :)

JJ, Beth and I all have brithdays this month, so we’re having a party at TRS Blue . This was one of my presents. And he’s ALL MINE!

Come join the party here for some hot excerpts, and silly chatting!!

is the last of the ALLURE AUTHORS I’m going to introduce you to .

I admit it, she’s a woman of mystery to me, but she writes pretty damn good stories. Here’s an excerpt from her EC release Trouble with Harry

Harry Taylor brushed his hat against his dust-crusted trousers and knelt in front of the sarcophagus. Pry bar in hand, he paused. Within the heavy coffin lay the culmination of five years searching, studying and digging in the driest of deserts near the base of the Zagros Mountains.

“Are you going to open it, or what?” William Prater, Harry’s assistant and friend, stood on the other side of the stone platform, sand and sweat streaking his blond devil-may-care looks. “Whatever you do, hurry it up. You never know when those tomb guards will show again.”
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