Sasha White

Here’s something to get everyone started.

I know it’s kinda dark, but those muscles are just too hard to resist! I even enjoyed the movie, strictly for the action of course. It had nothing to do with the fact that Karl Urban was in it too! :P

Since my chronicles of Man 1 have been so well received I figure that I’ll let you all in on the complete hunt.

What I’m looking for: 2 things really. A lover, and a relationship. The thing is, I believe I can find the lover, but I don’t have much faith in finding a serious relationship.

In a lover, I want someone that is casual, that I don’t have to chat with every day or hang out with all the time, but someone that wants more than ‘just a fuck’. I want a friend, with benefits type of thing. Someone that I can call when I need some personal attention, (or vice versa) but won’t make me feel like a cheap slut.

In a relationship…I want it all. LOL I want a man that I can respect and love, and that I’ll want to do anything for, because he’ll do anything for me. Now, DO I believe this will ever happen? I don’t know. Sometimes I do, most times I don’t. But, I’m open to it if the right guy, and the right feelings came along.

What I’m doing to get what I want: I put a personal ad on the Internet. I find it very easy to talk to people over the Internet.

What I WON’T Do: Look in the “intimate” section of the personals. I’ll stick with the dating, and the relationship ones. I’ve also decided not to tell men I write erotica. LOL I’ll be my open and honest self, but I’m going to try to put less of an emphasis on my whole sexual self, until I know that he understands clearly, that a certain amount of friendship is part of the deal.

Click more to read the add I placed.

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So, if you’ve been reading regularly, you know I met a guy off the internet earlier this week. (I’ll call him Man 1) I was sort of excited. He was attractive, and I felt very comfortable with him. So comfortable that amongst the talk of family and jobs that we talked alot about sex, I told him about what I write, some of my own fantasies. Some pretty personal things.

He seemed like he was into it. . . into me. He showed some affection and interest. I learned he was good kisser and I felt comfortable enough with him to fool around a bit. Yes, this was the “first date” thing and I know all the RULES about shit like that…but to be honest…I hate head games. I don’t see any reason why I should pretend to be mysterious and make him work for it when I want it too. I also feel that things will only ever work if you’re honest and open…God am I STUPID! :crazy:

So that was Monday night. Wednesday night was my Blog party…and I was in a great mood. Man 1 dropped by on his way to help his brother out with some home renovations. This is after the blog party and I was excited , feeling good…and him and I got physical. More physical than last time, and yes, I got to see him naked. :P

Now, second time I see the guy and we’re in bed. Some would say I get whatever disrespect I deserve. I don’t believe that. I believe that sex is natural, and why can men be casual about it and women can’t? It’s the old why is a woman a slut and a man a stud?

Minutes after we’re done, he’s pulling on his pants and walking out the door. Did this bother me? Not really, I knew he had plans already that night and dropping by to see me had already made him late. I’m not a real clingy type so it was cool. What did bother me a bit, was the fact that he didn’t want to kiss me. How weird is that? It sorta felt like a slap in the face.

Now, I enjoy being the slut in the bedroom for someone I’m with. I know it doesn’t seem like I’m picky because I let this guy in to my bed so damn soon, but really, I am picky. By no means am I that way with everyone. But, I liked him, I felt comfortable with him and I don’t like head games.

So today he says hi on msn, and after a few minutes of chatting he say’s “I’m not looking for a relationship, or a girlfriend. I hope you know that.”

Uhmm, I do now.

I explain that I’m not looking to fall in love. (Well, I am. But not right away, and not sure if it would be with him. I mean , I am a woman…I’ve always wanted to fall in love…but I’m 35 years old and have never come close..so it’s not something I really see happening.)

We chat a bit, me being honest and open as usual…DO I want a relationship? Yes, I want a lover that can be a friend and show some affection as well. Does that mean I want a boyfriend that I talk to or chat with every day? Nope, not at all. I work nights, I write days, I ‘m trying desperately to build a career here, and really. . .I love my alone time. What it comes down to is him saying he wasn’t “into” that, but he was there if I just wanted a fuck.

Damn! Part of me, the hormonal PMSing part, is hurt. I’m pretty disappointed because I had hopes for getting some regular sex, and being able to maybe explore some of my more adventurous fantasies. Another part of me wonders if things went this way because I was “too easy”.

Realistically, I want a lover. If it grew to more, great, if it didn’t that would be ok too. Really, I just hate being alone sometimes, and some lov’n on a regular basis would be a welcome thing.

So tell me, am I going to have to play games in order to find a man that can deal with an ongoing, but casual relationship? Do I have to pretend that I don’t really enjoy sex, or want it as much as any guy would?

Cuz I hate pretending. It sucks. :angry:

Or. . . could he be offering me what I want and I, in my PMSing state, am just not able to see it? Does “just a fuck” mean just that? A fuck, no affection, no hugs or kisses or anythign once the cumming os over. Or is it Man Speak for being a casual lover?

It’s Friday!! One more night at work and then I get three more days off! :hehe:

Well, those three days are the days when I get most of my writing done, so they’re not really ‘days off’ just days off from the pub.

I actually only work 2 days this week, because I took Wednesday off for the blog party. (And had a great time giveing things away!) Last night when I went into work, feeling pretty good. Relaxed and pumped at the same time. My first table was a table of 16 Ironwokers. Hungry, thirsty and flirtatious ironworkers. They thinned out through out the night, but there were still 2 left at the end of the night when I locked up. Man those guys can drink! I had to kick them out. :rolleyes:

And somehow, my hormones managed to take control through-out the night. Not the ones we talked about yesterday, that means NOT the ones that cause me to think about sex all night.(despite the men there) The ones that were in charge last night were the FOOD SLUT ones. :O

I bet it was because I was feeling good about being healthy. Yup, you know when you start to feel good about that something has to go wrong. It started with an order of Dry Garlic Ribs. Then came the chicken wings. THEN came the Cactus Cut Potatoes! I love those potatoes. They’re like spicy ships and dip.

Anyway..At least I can honestly say I didn’t eat ALL of that. I shared with a couple of regulars sitting at the bar. I told them that if they ate some, they’de be helping me on my diet. :D Then I got home and had a breaded chicken breast before going to bed.

BUT! I only had one glass of Diet Coke. Okay, I had one PINT of Diet coke. :P And today, after sleeping all that food off late into the morning, I’m back to salad and chicken breast for lunch. There will be a case of Diet Coke going in my fridge when I go grocery shopping tomorrow! I’d rather have the pop than the greasy food. ;)

What about you all…what ARE you willing to sacrifice for your health? And what will you NEVER give up?

I’m drinking a glass of FLAT diet Coke for breakfast, and I hate it. Not the diet coke, but any FLAT pop. My mother, weird Italian lady that she is loves flat pop. :crazy:

Anyway, I was chatting with Cece and Sylvia this morning when I decided flat pop was better than none…and this spawned a discussion on flat things that went something like this.

Sasha: “I’m having a glass of FLAT d.coke now..:angry: UGH! I hate flat pop…but I need the caffiene. I hate FLAT stuff” (me really not a morning person.)
Sylvia: “I’d like a flat stomach.”
Sasha: No shit!
Cece says: Anything BESIDES A FLAT ASS, which is worse than flat coke.

And you know what? Even though I have a big ass, and often wish it was small enough to fit into a size 10 or 12 instead of a 14 or 16, I still like it better than a FLAT ass. :)

It’s weird. I weigh more than I ever have in my life right now, but I’m strangely content with my body. Is it age that’s making me feel this way? Don’t get me wrong, I still want to lose 40 pounds, but I’m not depressed or stressed out about it. I still go the gym, but I’m determined to never go back to training or working out 6 days a week like I did when I was in my 20’s. I still let myself eat pizza (but not every day….which is hard when you work at a a pizza place) and drink beer. I HAVE switched from Coke to diet coke, and I’ve cut out chips and chocolate bars. Mostly.

I still have moments of doubt about my attractiveness when I get naked with a man….but I’ve learned that men don’t really care about a few extra pounds if your naked. At least not the couple that have seen ME naked in the last couple years. And knowing that they aren’t freaked by the extra padding makes everything that happens better.

Okay, my babbling post has gone on enough…not sure how I got the whole sex thing…but this post will probably give you all an idea of how my mind works…things almost always come back to sex. Is this normal? Is it because I’m single and in my 30’s, a womans sexual prime? Is it because I write erotica?

They say men think about sex more than women, but I’m not so sure about that. What do you think? How often do you think about sex?

CONGRATULATIONS to PUPPY 2324!! (I don’t know your name…just your email address!! )

You win a free copy of every story I release this year!! That’s three books for sure…GYPSY HEART from LSB, MEANDROS from Amber Quill in June, ANd THE DEVIL INSIDE, the newest one that LSB just offered for last nite!!

I hope you enjoy them..and I hope there will be more!! I’m writing as fast as I can so I can share a bunchof steamy fantasies with you all!

Thank you so much to all of you that have particapated in today’s party! Hopefully inthe travels I sent you on around the web you’ve found some new authors to interest you as well. I want you to know that YOU made it fun for me…and I hope it was fun for you!

Have a great Night!!

The Winner of a 30 page critique by Cece is Liz! Congratualtions!!

OK folks. This is the last giveaway…the final grand prize of a free copy of each of my Releases in the next year, starting with GYPSY HEART. Now, if you’ve entered anyof the contests I held today, or joined my newletter, you’ve enterd this draw…but if you want to enter again for a better chance of winning search my site and answer These questions for me!

1) What’s the title of the short story in Wicked WOrds, Sex in the office?
2) Who is my first intervewee, and what is the name of her new paranormal series?
3) What year was I born in?

For each correct answer…I’ll enter your name inthe draw one more time.

Just to show you what the first one you get is…here’s the cover once again!

Yay Robyn!! You win the Journal!!
email me with your snail mail address so I can send it out!!

Next Prize is a great one for any writer! Celia Stuart, pubbed erotica author, trained contest judge, and my critique partner, has agree to do a 30 page critique for the someone!

The question? What fanclub is Cece a member of –it’s on her STUFF page and the answer is the same pic of the hottie!

How many of your are writers, as well as readers? What do you write?

I read and writer romance and erotica…but I aslo read fantasy and thrillers…someday I want to write an erotic thriller. What about you? Do you write the same genre as you read? or do you find that too much of a good thing?

Update Kylie, I need you to email me your address….you too Robyn! :)

Whoo Hooo!! Janice Wilson, you have just won a copy of Shara’s PRIMITIVE PASSION!

Are you a new ebook reader? IF you are, I know this one will convert you! I’ll pass your email on to Shara, I knwo she’s lurking around here somewhere, and she’ll get in touch with you!

Whilel i have peopel here…how many of you are actual eBook readers? What do you thinkof this formatt for books? I personally love it..it’s cheaper,the books stay on the shelves longer so when I get hooked on a series or author, her backlist is STILL easily available, and the stores never close!

What do you like/dislike about them?

Next contest up…the chance to win a Hardcover Spiral Journal for your own Secret Thoughts! ;)

In order to enter this draw you need to surf MY site until you can tell me what “I” fantasize about in the SHORT-SHORT THE GYM.

Have fun!! :laugh:

WhooHoo Congratualtions Kylie Miller for winning the HUNK Calender. Email me your snail mail address so I can get it in the mail!

Next up is another great LSB author!

Shara Lanel has donated a free download of her newest release PROMITIVE PASSION…check it out!

In order to win this erotic tale you need to email me with the name of Shara’s Newletter! The answer is on her website. While you’re there, surf the site and check out her other book Enlightened Love…it’s still available at LSB too!

UPDATE
here’s a pic of my ultimate HERO MATERIAL from the last question. Damn he’s HOT! :P